Incline Vs. Incline?

So, over the past few days, my life has made an incredible turnaround.

I got closure regarding this previous relationship I had, and haven't been nearly as anxious.

The show I'm Stage Managing is going so much better than I anticipated it would. And I've come to find I really enjoy the whole experience. Which I NEVER expected. BUT, c'est la vie.

Oh, and I met a lady! So there's that. She's all sorts of cute and spunky and loud and obnoxious and wonderful.

I'm happy for the first time in months.

And let me tell you, it is a great feeling. :)

Hear Me Yet?

So, I figured it out. What I really want right now.

It's gonna sound silly, I imagine.

And I'm guessing most of you are tired of hearing about my issues. But, as I've said before, no one is making you read this.

What I want right now, more than anything else in the world is to feel valued.

I want to feel like I'm important, that I'm not just cast aside until I'm needed for something. Until someone has a favor to ask, or a task to complete. I want to feel like someone wants me.

Right now, it feels like everyone I know is having good things happen to them. I mean, everyone I know has someone, just about. And if they don't, they have friends they can go to at a moment's notice.

My three best friends live a minimum of an hour away. Two of them live more than two away. And although only one of them has a significant other, the other two live in dorms and have roommates and other people they can spend time with.

I have neither and it just sucks.

I want to feel like someone's everything, instead of everyone's something.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. - Lao Tzu

Incline/Decline

You

Me

You're happy.

I'm depressed.

You've got someone to call yours.

I don't.

You got into school.

I lost my scholarship.

You've got everything planned out.

I don't know what I'm doing.

You've got all the friends you need.

Mine live forever away.

All you've done is take.

All I did was give. Even still.

You know.

I don't.

Your zealous.

I'm jealous.

You don't care.

I wish I didn't.

Blegh

Exhaustion.

True exhaustion.

That's what I'm feeling right now.

Overwhelmed.

I'm so tired.

I would give anything to have someone to spend time with.

Anything.

*sigh*